It feels like I have lost the love for life. I mean, not really; it's not like I'm going to commit suicide or something. But, I feel like I don't have any thrill or excitement for life. Every morning I just get out of bed, 'coz I am supposed to. But, really I don't have anything to look forward to in the day. I don't want a life like this. I want to feel inspired by something, I want to do something, to accomplish something. I feel like I am just wasting my life, not doing anything. I know all this, and still I just don't get that feeling from inside to do something, to create something. What's wrong with me?
If you have followed my blog for sometime, you probably know about my big move across coast. It's been a few months being a Cali resident, but I haven't gotten out as much as I would have liked. Maybe once we move to a place, it kinda loses the tourist charm that it has when we visit for a weekend. Don't you think? I decided to make this right and this Memorial Day weekend, I spent my first Touristy day in San Francisco. Like anything else, I made a long list of places to see, and spread it across three days based on distance proximity. Yes, it was a whole weekend plan but life get in way and hence it ended up being just a day trip. The day started with a little detour at Bay Trail, near Shoreline Park, followed by a quick brunch at Crepe Vine and a beautiful long drive to the city. The Painting Ladies at Alamo Square was our first stop. These are basically just houses with a Victorian architecture and painted with three or more colors. The whole area l...
You are *so* not alone. As far as feeling like you're wasting your life...I get that! I absolutely feel like my calling in life is to be a wife and a mother. And I haven't felt called to go to college. I'm working now, but beyond that...it's like, okay, I'll just chill out till Mr. Right comes along, and my real job begins? Yeah. I don't know. But lately, I've been feeling the exact words you've written here. But there's nothing wrong with you, dear...I think this is a stage in life that maybe all of us go through at one point or another :) So remember, you're not alone in this :)
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Thanks Lauren .. Your words did make me feel better..
DeleteI can relate to this all too well. This feeling comes often, passes, and revisits. I think what helps me is to put in things---big and small---that bring more meaning. That can be a yoga class just for me, cultivating a new friendship, trying to get more writing out there, or going into a bit of social isolation. It will pass, though.
ReplyDeleteThanks Sawmya :)
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