Do you ever feel like you're scared of being happy?
Even when things seem to go right, you are just so afraid all the time
..as if you are just waiting for it to become un-happy again because that's what feels normal to you
..as if you don't even remember what happy feels like
..as if something as simple as a smile or a word can jinx it all.
Is there an end to it?
Is there a way out of this maze?
Is there a happy life for me?