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Always at Square One!

If I turn back and see, in the past few years, I have seen a lot, learnt a lot, experienced a lot. 
I know how things are, how people act, how everything's so prioritized, how they let you down, how expectations hurt.
I have been through it, and I understand that very well. 
But, why do I fail to put it into my way of life? 
Why I forget all those lessons when I should have remembered the most? 
Why do I trust, love, Why do I believe? 
I feel I am caught in this vicious circle, all blame to me of course, that I always expect and then fail, learn lessons but again take chances, expect and again fail. 
Always end up being at square One, from where I had started.

I just hate myself for that!

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  1. wwSaturday, August 21, 2010 9:26:00 AM

    this post really gets me, like..well, seriously!!
    you're good at putting it into words, DT, awh! :)

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