If I turn back and see, in the past few years, I have seen a lot, learnt a lot, experienced a lot.
I know how things are, how people act, how everything's so prioritized, how they let you down, how expectations hurt.
I have been through it, and I understand that very well.
But, why do I fail to put it into my way of life?
Why I forget all those lessons when I should have remembered the most?
Why do I trust, love, Why do I believe?
I feel I am caught in this vicious circle, all blame to me of course, that I always expect and then fail, learn lessons but again take chances, expect and again fail.
Always end up being at square One, from where I had started.
I just hate myself for that!